I turned 23 bitches!!!! Another year in the books! So for my bday I went to the city of sin and lost wages… LAS VEGAS! I never do anything big for my bday but this year I thought, why the fuck not ! I was supposed to go with 2 of my friends but it […]Read more "Sugar daddies, spice, and some things not so nice. TW: Vegas massacre"
Ever since I was young guys have never particularly liked me. The reasoning back then: my parents were too strict and I could never go out/ I was too book smart and didn’t have any street smarts that would appeal to the dudes who had interest in me. Now: I’m just “too much”. So as […]Read more "I get it now…"
Last weekend I got high for the 2nd time in my life. The first time I smoked was the day of Carnival when I was making the most questionable decisions with a great group of people but this past weekend, I just needed to get high. The day after I wrote my last post everything […]Read more "The Talk "
Happy Wednesday y’all. The summer is almost over and the fall is entering into our lives in full swing…. ….maybe that’s why I forced it this weekend. From the beginning of last week I was hella pumped because I knew I was going to see SZA on Friday. Work agitation seemed insignificant, life drama barely existed […]Read more "Prayin’ the 20 somethings don’t kill me… (Medium Length Read)"
I don’t feel like I belong.Read more
I tend to wonder if anyone else has a constant reminder that their life is not supposed to be long. Almost as if it’s in your destiny to take your own life; a haunting memory from your first attempt that lingers like a dark desire when you’re left alone to your thoughts. The urge isn’t […]Read more "Most awkward things to talk about: Death and Sexuality (TW suicide)"
Jun 15th entry: I feel disgusting. Huge. Like a fucking unattractive blob. This is going to sound like a stupid, unnecessary sob story but this is how I feel. I’ve always weighed around 125-130lbs and as of late I weigh 145lbs . I’m not used to this weight gain and it makes me feel like […]Read more "Fuck me (not in the way you’re thinking)"